Wednesday, August 31, 2011

swimming seemed to help

I went swimming on base in the Sound yesterday after work. Not only was it nice, and empty, but the water was slightly choppy making me work harder. Unfortunately, I kept kicking fish which made my mind wonder to sharks....

After a few laps I sat in the sun to dry off a bit and further relaxed. I brought a book for today.

It took a bit to quiet my mind last night, mental chanting helped and I was out from about 11.30 to 5am. Wide awake at 5. Rolled around trying to sleep only managing it after 7 when I needed to be up. No wine, no sleeping pill, and I still feel crazy groggy today. Must just be lack of sleep.

I am hoping to keep this swimming up. Free, on my way home, get my beach time in, and maybe knock me out too. Its a win-win.

Tonight is hot wing sauce over chicken breast in crockpot. I think I want this over salad, which means shopping after work. Hm, maybe over green beans.

Monday, August 29, 2011

other random thoughts

i keep trying to write blogs as i think of stuff and it just doesn't happen. so here is a recap of the ones i can remember:

~made it through 4 hours at the cook job and did not eat anything! couldn't make/eat mf, but didn't eat that food!!! was starving afterward and probably killed the diet, but I made it.
~bought a cake today, half way home i realized i didn't want it at all, i was just hungry and gave in. crazy because i turned from sooooo many desserts - yay!. i had a few tastes and i was done. yay!
~that cake is going to work and i know i won't eat it then, good thing i hate frosting.
~did a great job at the baby shower and ate the guts of the sandwich and tossed the bread, at least most of the time. i tossed it until i started to feel faint. not the best choice, i was probably dehydrated, but just in case, i was not about to land on my face with a bunch of ladies in heals around.
~insomnia has been crazy, almost every night, so i have sworn off diet soda. while it is allowed on this diet and so i started drinking it, the lack of cals and carbs allowed the caffeine to go crazy. so that is now cut off. this way if it keeps going i can try to figure out other reasons for the insomnia.
***I did figure out that if i listen to something, like music, i stop my incessant, pointless thinking. so i put on soundscapes on tv and was able to sleep for an hour or so. staying asleep is the problem.
**might go back to drinking a glass of wine a night. wine is a nono on this diet, but if it helps me sleep, is it really so bad? i will wait to test this out until i have all the caffeine out of my system.
~ i like the beach. we went on sunday and i am thinking maybe i will go every day and swim around a bit for my exercise. i need a water proof watch. think there is one hanging around somewhere. then I will get to work earlier (ha) and get to the beach and home before too late.
~found a perfect soup at my favorite Vietnamese/Chinese place that is cheap and huge as well as not too salty. yum!

I am sure there is more but that is all I can think of right now.

DH loved this recipe

My husband is a good sport about my crazy recipes. Even when I am ready to vomit he nicely says its not bad, okay, or is it okay with me, could he not eat have anymore/not finish what he has? "I really tried, honey." The last always makes me want to saw aw, okay, he just looks and sounds so cute.

I tried a recipe I found on a fellow Medifasters blog. It was set up for one person so I just winged it an made it to fill up a 9x13in baking pan (glass). I was starving when I started. It started with zucchini and yellow squash slices (I love my 9$ gadget! it was perfect!) on a pam-sprayed pan. I made a good inch, inch and a half-thick layer then you put a mixture of cooked ground meat tomato paste (important!) and spices. I used a jar of tomato sauce we had to save on extra items. Instead of mixing it I just layered everything. On top of the beef came cottage cheese (my first time using it) then shredded mozz and parm, but I left off the parm. Baked for 30 at 350*.

How it turned out, not bad at all, a definite keeper. It needed to bake a bit more, it was still kind of crunchy, but definately done. The sauce turned to water, and we lost the flavor, hence the original recipe calling for paste. Oops. Next time maybe bake until cooked, then layer on to melt the cheese. Who known. All I worried was if DH liked it, and he kept asking for me. Since it was all veggies (and cheese, ok fine) I said sure. I had 2 portions which I think might have been technically 1 portion.

Here is it, thanks to Sandy

Italian Ground Beef Squash Casserole
2.50 oz cooked 93% lean ground beef or ground turkey (.50 Lean)
1/3 cup 2% reduced fat mozzarella cheese, shredded (.33 Lean)
1/4 cup 1% cottage cheese cheese (.17 Lean)
1/4 cup tomato puree, canned (1 Green)
1/2 cups sliced zucchini (1 Green)
1/2 cups sliced yellow squash (1 Green)
1/8 tsp garlic powder (.50 Condiment)
1/8 tsp salt (.50 Condiment)
1/2 tsp basil (.50 Condiment)
1 tsp reduced fat parmesan cheese (.33 Condiment)

Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Spray a casserole dish with pam and set aside. Brown ground meat and measure out 2.50 oz cooked. Reserve any extra ground meat for another dish.

Combine tomato puree, garlic powder, salt, basil and oregano until well blended. Pour tomato sauce over ground meat and stir until combined.

Layer zucchini and yellow squash at the bottom of the casserole dish. Pour ground beef mixture over squash. Spread cottage cheese over the meat mixture and then sprinkle mozzarella cheese over the top. Sprinkle parmesan cheese over the top. Bake for 25 minutes.
* Note: You can use 99% lean ground meat but you will need 3.5 oz and 1 healthy fat

1 Serving with 1 Lean Option, 3 Greens, 2 Condiments per serving and No Healthy fat required.

weekend 18

I always think of great things to put in this blog and when I finally sit down to write I remember none of them.

I worked the cook job on Thurs so I had the weekend off, which I had to take off. Friday night was nice and relaxing, we just watched a ton of nature shows (penguins, polar bears, etc). DH woke me up on Sat morning and made eggs for breakfast. I was getting ready to go to a baby shower when I realized my makeup was running down my face. Long story short, the fan in the a/c unit died. It was fixed later that day.

Sunday I made it to the beach! Yay. Saturday night was crazy insomnia time. I am bored of this already. So I am cutting out diet soda, even tho it is allowed on this diet. I think the caffeine might be killing me. While I slept wonderfully on Sunday night, I did wake up with a headache. This time I made sure to eat the night before and had no soda. I need to get back to exercising. Or maybe just swimming in the water after work for a bit. Its too bad bathing suits take forever to day. I wont have this problem when I am a skinni mini in a bikini!

I am going to try to shrink my pants/jeans. They are too big and falling off. I have cute undies, but the world does not need to see them unless is my decision, there is no democracy with my clothing. Having said that, I fit into a pair of 18s today!!! I had to confess that I have owned these forever so may not be the original size. But they zipped right up. That weird too-tight belly roll that otherwise does not exist is visible when I sit. Its always the sitting at kills me. But they are on and I am not in pain!!! Go me!

Saturday, August 20, 2011

sat am weigh-in

221.0 finally made it to 0.0 wanted to be at minus 20 this weekend, but i'll take 19 given everything that has been going on and that i can't eat my MF meals at the cook job.
1) no time to prepare
2) not time to eat with 1 person only, me
3) no ice water quick at hand w/o leaving the grill.


Wednesday, August 17, 2011

insomnia forcing a day at home

I took an OTC sleeping pill at about 830pm so it would kick in and let me sleep. DH had (today) off so he was up late watching tv. I went to bed about 9pm and did some Sudoku. I woke up well after Dh had come to bed, about 12 midnight and was wide damned awake.

No matter what I did I could not settle back down. Either my body wanted to move or my mind raced, classic insomnia. I moved to the couch and watched tv, didn't help. About 2 am I took an advil pm. I slept on the couch for an hour max. I was up again.

This is getting ridiculous. Since I can't eat cereal, I was searching for something to weigh my tummy down, hoping that would help. Tea, did not help. We had some microwave crap food. I smelled DH's so I made one. It tasted fine, but when it did not help me sleep I was going over and over again how it killed my diet and was a waste of good calories. Which, of course, did not help my insomnia.

I tried to go back to bed and was piping hot so it was back to the great room. Lucky the Science Channel had excellent shows on, all about space and sharks and giant squids. So while I could not focus on anything I was at least not pissed there wasn't anything on to boot.

Tonight, I will use the whole suggest dose, 2 pills. Take it early and hope it knocks me out cold for the night.

I called in today, figuring I might go in later on. Tried to go to sleep and, unsurprisingly, it was impossible. So I started cleaning about 9 am. Its now almost 11 am: I swiffered both bathrooms, the foyer, the kitchen, twice and its still gritty, stupid garage, the great room, and the dinning room. Since DH was still in bed, I polished all the wood in the great room, the dinning room table, the chairs (each piece of all of them) and the china cabinet. I also made breakfast for the next two days and had half my daily water for today. I took out the dining room table runner and shook it outside.

Dh is finally up so I can vacuum the great room, the rest of the hallway, and all the tile to pick up whatever grit it is I feel on my feet, stupid garage and guests wearing shoes. The ottoman might need to be vacuumed.

What else can I get done before noon? I figured I would just stay home, to sleep, and maybe relax and figure out what is keeping me up at night. Probably my stupid cook job, since I hate it. I realized I am pissed bc my group of friends were talking about bowling for free ... ON THE DAY I AM WORKING. Friday and Saturday. UGH! I of course can't be mad at them, but just the fact that I am working Friday and Saturday and they are planning to go out. I can't wait to pay off this stupid loan. The universe needs to align so I can finally use this in and get a different job. Or maybe the day crew needs to work the weekend. Too bad someone just quit, so that's that.

To end on a positive note, the house is clean now! Maybe I will clean the fan in the bedroom. Can't reach the one in the great room. The window blinds need to be cleaned as well. I don't think either he nor I ever wiped them down. I want Mom here to talk to me while I clean them. I suppose I should clean the windows inside and out also. I think I will fit the beach in before dinner. What ARE we having for dinner?

Sunday, August 14, 2011

stress and work leads to more pounds loss

lots of stress all around. no need to rehash here.
stupid work at the grill last night. i have blisters on my feet, my feet hurt and my back is killing me from leaning over the too-high sink to wash everything.
had enough protien in the am so I wasn't hungry and only 2 mf meals (badbadbad).
but I am now at 221!!!! As soon as I eat it will be up again, but I am almost to my next goal!

Saturday, August 6, 2011

clothing sizes and what lies beneath

Ok I tried to load my weight ticker. Trial and error. I am now up to minus 17.6 lbs.

after my hair apt at jcp i tried on some dresses. their plus size was way to big (yay). not surprisingly, i don't have the chest for it. the story of my life. so i went down the rack of clearance items and found that jcp apparently does not stock size 18.
i grabbed a few 16s. i know, companies use all different sizes to get people to buy the products. anyway, i found 2 16's dresses that almost fit! so I bought them. they will be my minus 20 lbs present to myself. $70 and $90 for $20 and $30. I think that is a nice gift.
Talk about a non-scale victory!

this was of course before my veg out on pizza. a big no-no. but i did lose weight from yesterday to today in spite of the pizza and no exercise all week. yay me! and a shout-out to my husband for being so supportive....and not asking me if i want toast with my eggs.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Non scale Victory

I had a pair of pants I used for my cook job, jeans from walmart. size 18. I really couldn't wear them, had to leave the zipper down and cover it with my shirt and apron. I was too damned cheap and didn't want to ruin any other pants. They ultimately lived in the closest because they didn't fit.

I had to work tonight. So I grabbed the pants and thew them into my bag planning on just . In the bathroom at work I put them on and figured I might as well try.


no pain, no muffin top! Not an amazing fit but a fit none the less.

a nice end to my day.
work wasn't so bad either.

Monday, August 1, 2011

Down and Out

I am now at an even loss of minus 16 pounds. Have been consistently for the past few days.

I talked to a friend and she is going to help me take in some pants and shirts so I can get a bit more shape into them and a bit more wear out of them.

Cook job is starting up again. This may be a very, very hard time for my diet. Working dinner time has always been so hard! And everything there makes me sick or is not allowed on the diet.

After 2 weeks of consistent 3.2 speed on the treadmill I took yesterday off and nearly died this morning when I bumped it up to 3.4. I also just could not get out of bed. This is also my cuddly, soul food craving week so exercise might be out the door. Good thing I already planned meals for the week or it might be all take out. And I do not want to gain just to have to fight to lose it again.

Recipes tried: balsamic chicken, delic; chai hot coco fudge, eh; kale chips, delic; cream of tomato, gross!